Learning is part of our life, learning is entertainment, it is solutions to problems, learning is a community of people that connect us. Lately I have felt like I am lacking the tools to help my students in a better way, furthermore I feel I lack some tools to help myself. You can say that my problem is lack of confidence. But then I am actually doing and learning all the time, maybe the reality is that I am doing too much. Yep, that would make sense. Yet, the solution goes back to learning. Learning, having hope that you can improve in some areas of your life. As a teacher, as a student, as a business owner, as a dancer, as a friend, as a partner, and more importantly as myself. As the guy that is here with me loving this moment, or away from what is in front of me. So what about a little trip to find a few of those things all together. Going to a festival without responsibilities.
I am not far, I am sitting in a nice cafe, here somewhere in Sydney, I just finished my brekky, I forgot to say please do not make the chilli scramble eggs less spicy, I guess that I am already learning. I am looking to find space to connect with the source because without you there is no enjoyment. I felt that little part was a bit tricky. Enjoy and again I could do less. But right now I am insistent that there has to be better ways to do everything. Well not everything, but a bit more, and at the same time understand that part of the solution is to let go of some stuff, thus I am here in a different town maybe working a bit less and not teaching at all this weekend, maybe learning a bunch. I am planning to learn, practice dancing, enjoy some time with myself, and try my best to connect with people that I do not normally connect with.
I do not remember the last time I was solely on the other side, in a festival where I do not get paid to do things, I am just here, as a student, as the same Pedro that loves to connect to people, without having to tell anyone what to do. To be honest I am not sure how I am going to do that to myself, I guess I have a rough idea of what I am doing, training, dancing. Well now I am writing and it is ok, I like this part. But I guess everything comes back to sitting down to write the obligations and go and enjoy them. At least to have an idea of what I want to do. I like that I do not really know what I am doing, just going with the flow. It is like I do not see the way to organise this. I imagine that you are here, maybe expecting to learn something from me. Well I am trying to understand that everything is ok. And the point of writing it is not to teach the world it is to write, to come back to myself and share a bit of what is happening, for what it is worth, let me try to get a lesson.
Breathe Pedro, breathe, go to the next extension, communicate to find your place, talk to yourself. Please let’s sit down and write what we need out of today. Life is good. You will be ok, Please just enjoy. Keep doing what you are doing now and make sure that you finish some of the things you started, please breathe so you do not leave these lines for something else that may be equally important, but it is not this. This is what you are doing. You are writing, you are connected to your weekly process, breathe and just write, stop thinking how much you have left to do. To go to the next thing, stay with me and breathe. We are writing. It feels nice when I bring myself back to this moment, to my chain of thoughts, and have them just populate this page, this is what matters. Yes we will go to the next thing, and if we can finish it, then we decide, but make sure that you breathe, because if we do not breathe, we miss it. And it is ok, 1 day ago you did not even know that you would be here doing this, preparing to be part of this festival, so it is ok, just make sure that you do you and breathe.
I guess the lesson is that learning starts with you being present, with you being able to, despite your limitations, connect to the lessons in front of you. You and only you can create the list of things that will be part of your journey, let’s make some notes on what we want to do. And then just enjoy as much as you can. Thank you Pedro, Thank you for writing, thank you for taking your time to try to learn a bit about yourself, I love you, let’s do this… Breathe.
Gracias for reading