I honestly like to clog my schedule with more than I can handle, I am at the point where I am 100% sure that the best course of action is letting something go, but no, I just find myself adding more things to my day. So the feeling that was already overwhelming becomes slightly more overwhelming. I am not sure how to do that maths. I guess the love for what I do and my love for my own curiosity and for the plans I make is huge. I would not like it any other way. I wish days were longer, or I was faster. But I just want to emphasise how amazing it is that I am already executing at this level. I could not be more proud of those things. I am working on most of the important areas of my life like my health, physical and mental, my relationships, my friendships. It is incredible the opportunities that I have today. Yes, I could choose to minimise my pain, I could choose to ignore my problems, and I could choose to avoid challenging ventures, but I am choosing to live and try the way I want to live. Today I am choosing to smile, for the things I am doing, to enjoy the challenge and to be grateful for the things that I am having to put aside. Goals, values, and compassion, please help me choose wisely.
Blaming the world seems like a very common way to see the world, I am honestly good, well, I judge a lot, but that does not mean that I am good at it. Let’s say I judge often. Yet, I am working on bringing light and awareness towards the things I do. Yet, the circumstances are tough sometimes, life has its own ways to pressure you unexpectedly, but the only one responsible for handling things is you, so why not find a better way to live your days, dancing to the music life throws at you? Stop for a second and think how blessed this moment is. I find that almost every second of my life has great features for being a moment of greatness. The fact that you are alive is a beautiful coincidence. Yes, dance, dance like nobody is watching or like everyone is, it depends on what you like more. The idea is realising, that we are responsible for how we are living and also the way we react to how we live. It is probably useful to stop for a second to see how to create a more loving life, you gotta bring the love. You, no one else, you bring it. With love, you might be able to read and feel that I love you for it.
Challenges are always personal, we want to blame others, but stop it. You put yourself in that situation. This is one of the hardest realities, accepting that we are responsible for most of the obstacles in our way, for some of us all of the obstacles. We are also the ones to blame if there is more than what we can chew. Not in the way that I don’t see that some people are born with a disability or in very disadvantaged realities. Nonetheless, In the majority of cases, we are the ones who should change our glasses to see the world with a bit of colour. I think the way to go is to find a way that helps you understand your reality, maybe writing, meditating, a psychologist, a GP, your mum, your best friend, or your dog that you take out for a walk. Please allow yourself time to reflect on your life. Take some time to see how you can start organising things. Remember that when you are picking dog shit off the floor, it is because you decided to have one. But then see that is a small price for unconditional love, while you feed him, joking. Going out, drinking with friends and enjoying your hobby, they have different purposes, but if you want to enjoy life you need to stop getting distracted and maybe get more bored and let the brain fill with dopamine and try to find ways to see the good in life.
I think everything I mentioned here is worthwhile to explore to a few hundred pages, but thank you for reading my 4 paragraphs.
Goals, yes I have many ways of setting them up, but my issue is not the lack of goals, my issue is that I might have too many, most of them are amazing, but clearly I could do better with less. Goals that are aligned with my values, values that are not necessarily confronting each other. A confronting value, like freedom and family, freedom to travel around the world and family that is more related to settling in one place. In my case, I am in that moment when I am analysing my values and finding a better structure that allows me to enjoy this moment. So I am open to finding more simple ways to lift my life. Because it’s my life, iIt’s now or never, I ain’t gonna live forever, I just want to live while I’m alive… Yep that’s from Jon Bon Jovi. it is the most redundant song, but also life is redundant, everyday is a slight repetition of yesterday. So if I can understand my intrinsic motivation better, I might be able to better understand what my values are and then create some goals that are achievable for me, and that will create happiness. If I link compassion and love to every step of the process, especially when picking up dogshit in the park, I might be able to remember and see all the beauty in one’s life.
Gracias for reading,
Pedro