I am a dancer, a performer, a writer. I am so many things and I honestly love that about my life. These experiences seem to have an endless amount of sources. In many ways, I notice that I am capable of enjoying and thriving in a different environment, some kind of superego that makes me believe that I can do everything, maybe because of it. Music, maths and dancing coexisted smoothly in my uni years. Beyond coexisting, I have to admit that I fell in love with the things I do, some enthusiastic energy takes over and allows me to create amazing things. I am not saying that my writing, my dancing or anything I do is amazing according to anyone’s perception. But for me, they are part of something magical that allowed me to be present and to love creating anything. In part, I feel deeply fortunate because my body, my brain and my spirit are capable of molding into what I or the circumstances need in any given body. From my flexible yet strong body for dancing, or my authentic and plastic brain for writing and choreographing to my soul that honestly wants to be a light giver in this world.
In the last couple of days I honestly started thinking in more limited negative ways, I have been feeling low of energy with my compass really disoriented. Yet north is here and it is in the same place it has always been. Inside me, a few insights, became habits, reminding me constantly that my heart is full of light, and that the brightness of my heart is part of my most natural way of being, like when I am dancing or talking with that person I love, or simply just filming a couple of videos for my social media. A long time ago I realised that a few of the things I want to see in this world don’t exist, yet, I can create them. It is possible and everyday I become more and more capable of building the life and the things around me that bring a little more love to the world that touches what I decide to create. Write Pedro, dance, please love as much as you can.
People I talk to are always somehow impressed with all the things that I have done with my life. I used to struggle to understand that not everyone has the same amount of energy, or the tools to express so much in one day. One friend I love told me once, “Don’t stay at home, get out you need to be in the wild.” I am once again looking for ways to build that human back to that behaviour, because in some ways I really suffered, uhhh suffer is too big of a word. I found it challenging to trust myself. You might believe that it is easy for me to talk to people, but I get into a little battle with myself almost every time, but almost always I have a great time talking to other human beings. This thing that I call a battle is in me as well as all my loving parts. “There is no battle,” my psychologist says, “you are not in war.” I really think I am not in war and I don’t think I have ever been in one. Yet, I learned to see the world like I was in one, despite having great loving parents and siblings. At some point growing up I changed to more darker ways of seeing the world when I used to listen to New Metal, or even earlier when I decided not to play the sport of my country, Baseball. I kept that rebellious behaviour, and there it is, I am still telling my story like it happened in a guerrilla war zone. It happened probably in a music school. Pedro Pedro Pedro… Pedro Que? It might be helpful to bring life to my own speech and the ways that I tell my own stories sometimes.
Leaving Venezuela was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life, yet the most beautiful. I left everything to build something new on the other side of the world. In a month’s time it will be 10 year anniversary of it and I can’t believe that time has passed so quickly. I am so glad that here I get to experience so many more Pedro Personas. I am so glad to meet so many amazing people who speak multiple languages like me, two are still multiple languages. I also meet amazing people who get inspired to learn Spanish, so many people who when they see me dancing want to know a bit of what I know, and so many people that has caused goosebumps just by telling me about them. Life is a beautiful opportunity to connect so please be the dancer, the writer, the friend, be anything you want but share a bit of light with me. Because no matter what you do you are lovable, lovely and capable of love.
Gracias for reading,
Pedro